To Know God and Believe Him

God chose me to know him and to be his witness!

John 8:36
36"So if the Son (A)makes you free, you will be free indeed.
I have a personal relationship with Christ, but until this latest mess with mother came up, I had distanced myself from him. Why did I do that? He had not moved. I know it was me. I'd gotten busy. I'd been working on web stuff. I'd been looking for things to do. I'd been working on the house. I'd been empty.

So right now, I want to change the distance. I want to be in the middle of what I need to be in the middle of. I don't want to be satisfied with anything less than what God wants! I want to know God intimately.

Division

I've been thinking back over my adult life at the division Mother has caused. It's been there ripe for the picking. I just didn't know it.

Comments that were frequently attributed to someone else.

Your grandmother even commented that your mother-in-law is going to be a handful.
Joe mentioned that he wondered why y'all had moved me out here and hadn't done more than you'd done.

She's got something else in mind, that little daughter-in-law of yours. You better watch out for her.

Those kinds of comments, looking back on them, were made for one purpose and one purpose only: to divide and conquer, to keep people from fully trusting one another, to create disharmony. She's a master of it.

Now, I want to let this go. I do. But I don't want to sweep it under the rug either. I don't want to excuse it or make it less than it is. I want to embrace it and understand who she is. I don't want to forget. I want to look her full in the face (or at least a photograph) and understand how she has manipulated our lives.